(burning)

something is burning
at the core
through my eyes
(my genitals)
longing.
Loneliness.
Desire.
Emptiness.
Isolation.
disconnection.
Futility.
Despair.
Frustration.
Weariness
from trying,
striving.
Uncertainty.
Confusion.
I don’t know
is there a reason
to believe
something good
in this,
something is burning
itself out
that needs to,
will be cleared
& cleansed.
That is my first
impulse to think
that way.
I am thinking,
thinking,
thinking.
I am trying
to figure it out,
to see what
to do,
to learn,
to burn.

7/14/99